Sakura felt her teeth clatter together from exhaustion and fear, unsure what to do; where to go; or what to say to whomever she encountered. She didn’t remember how she got down from the rooftop before the police arrived, but she did remember whose number she dialed from the payphone. She stood there looking at it for several minutes, unsure if she actually hear the voice.
“Hello”? The voice came across the line raggedly, like the croaking of a bull frog. She’d never actually heard a bull frog, but she imagined that his voice was a pretty close match. She couldn’t bring herself to speak. Her teeth clattered again. The voice seemed so distant, so unreal. Something more familiar touched her ear, “Moshi moshi?”Her name finally triggered a response, “Sakura?” there was concern lingering in the voice.
“Let me in.” she found her own voice to be alien, and fearing a return of that thing in her head she gently set the phone upon its hanging cradle. She pulled her arms about her waist hugging herself and walked across the street toward Isamu’s building. It sat atop a slight hill with steps leading up to the plateau upon which the hill leveled out too. She took the steps slowly, remembering how only days ago she’d taken them two at a time racing Isamu to the door. The building itself was beige brick that gave the building an exceptionally flat face, even the windows appeared to be unable to extend beyond the bricks themselves. The glass of the windows were reflective with a golden hue, when the sun shone on them the apartment complex appeared to be an extremely expensive dwelling. By her standards it was not.
Isamu took the stairwell leading to the front door of the apartment building two and three at a time, bounding down them as he rushed to the outside world. He felt something was wrong in the pit of his stomach, and his heart raced within his chest. The result was a pounding in his head that coincided with his pulse. He came to the door and pulled it open the locking mechanism falling back into place and echoing through the small chamber that surrounded the entrance, in the dead of night it sounded like someone was slamming a mallet.
He stepped outside,looking ahead and then to his right, there was no Sakura. “Sakura san?” he turned his head to the left and she righted herself from the building, he wiped at his eyes again. He looked at her clothes and mentally kicked himself at the thought going through his head. “Are you okay?” she looked as if she had been crying.
“Let me in.” she turned her head down and sniffed before walking toward the door, or more correctly, she walked toward him.
He was at a loss for words and decided to do what every woman would expect, he wrapped his arms around her. Barely touching her, she leaned into him and he felt warm liquid begin to make an uncomfortable trail down his chest; he wished he had remembered to wear a shirt. Feeling even more guilty, he turned his body, hoping she didn’t feel his really unwanted erection.
“Let’s go upstairs Sakura.” she rubbed her face against his skin and smeared her tears against his chest. He stepped back slightly and kept his arm around her shoulder, she leaned against him. It was the first time she invited him to touch her, and the first time he made the attempt.
“I’m sorry.” he didn’t say anything in response, only offered her a quiet rush of air from his teeth. He hoped it sounded soothing rather than abrasive and commanding.
“Shhh. Shh. Shh.” he shut the door of the apartment carefully and tip toed across the floor with Sakura, she had taken off her shoes and he quickly scooped them up so his mother or father wouldn’t see them. As they moved across the living room and then into his room, he realized for once how smooth her legs were if not a little bruised. Her skirt was several inches off her knee and the material lent shape to her figure. “Don’t let her feel it..don’t let her feel it.” he panicked in airy words no one else was meant to hear.
He fetched clothes from his dresser, laying his favorite t-shirt and a pair of sweat pants out for her. The shirt was white with the word ‘Ph34r’ on the front in black. The pants were flat grey, and much too large for her. “What if your parents wake up?”
“Well change here, I’ll just sit facing the door okay?” he was already shutting the bedroom door and sliding to the floor to sit.
“You–” she changed her mind. As she looked at him, she wondered if he’d closed his eyes and then began getting undressed. She folded her clothing, or what was left of it on the bed and felt another overwhelming urge to cry because her panties were still laying on someone’s floor that she didn’t even know that well. Everyone would see them. She never felt so naked than at that moment as she pulled the string of his sweats as tight as she could and then rolled the waist band several times. She never realized how much bigger than her he really was. She let the shirt drape over her upper body and whispered across the room, “I’m done.”
He got up and turned around slowly, as if he was scared she’d be standing there stark naked. She imagined that he actually let his shoulder relax slightly in relief. “You need to lay down here, –” he walked over and pulled his sheets down for her. “get under there and sleep. I need to get a blanket from the closet outside.”
She frowned for a second, still trying to get herself under control. “Why?”
He stood up and looked down at her with a furrowed brow, “To lay on the floor.”
“Lay with me!” she hissed as her hand extended and her fingers about his wrist with unbridled strength, she loosened her hold as she saw him nearly wince. “I’m sorry…please…lay with me. I want you to lay with me…please?”
“Okay. Okay.” he nodded slowly and climbed across the mattress to lay next to her. As he slipped beneath the covers, she turned over and found that place that every woman seemed to seek innately. Her head came to rest in the crook of his shoulder and with her hands pulled inward to her chest she laid her hands against him and closed her eyes. He felt fresh tears touch his skin and she slid one leg between his.
She felt safe, and thought of her father for a moment. She imagined she was talking to him and the words came without thought, “I’m not what you think Isamu chan.” a brief silence came as Isamu slid his head back a bit. “I’m nothing like what you think.” he figured she was already dreaming. “I’m. Not.” her touch lightened as the tension began to run from her body and she relaxed within is protective shell of arms and sheets. “Good for you.”
He watched her for several minutes before turning toward his nightstand. He tried not to move too much and left his arm beneath her head, she was so light! “Sakura?” she did not answer. “Sakura.” he whispered it more firmly as he picked up his cell phone, she did not answer or stir. He dialed her apartment number.
“Moshi moshi, Sakura chan?” came the voice across the line, it was Inoue Kimiko.
“This is Isamu–”
“Where is Sayou chan?” Inoue sounded instantly concerned.
He tried not to raise his voice too much, “She’s fine. I think something happened to her and she’s embarassed to come home. But she’s –”
“She should be home, her mother will be most displeased.” the tone became stern, but there was an underlining concern still there.
“She’s fine Inoue san. I promise, but she is sleeping. I do not think we should wake her.” Sakura stirred as he spoke and he lowered his voice a bit. “I will bring her home first thing in the morning. I promise. I am at home. Just across the street.”
“First thing in the morning Isamu….first thing.” she repeated as if the first time wasn’t enough.
“Yes. Inoue san.”
The line went empty, he set his phone down and curled around Sakura once again and smelled her hair, a combination of smoke and some perfume that smelled of plums or something. He kissed the top of her head and closed his eyes. Sleep did not come easily.