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This probably goes without saying for every sane man in the universe, but I just happened upon the reality of dealing with women. I must say, in hind sight it was not at all surprising; however, I just didn’t actually see it coming. Although this even wasn’t recent, somehow I still feel like a fucking idiot for even entertaining this stupidity. Probably shouldn’t be writing about it either, because well people are going to read it and say, “Wow, you need to get over it.” I am over it, I’m indifferent to the situation at this point, I have a good life, but I think that some of the things that have happened to me in the past have contributed to why I don’t feel anything. You know, that hollow thing I have going on inside. Some of that is my childhood, some of that is my dealing with people as a teen up until the last few years. I know there’s something wrong – I’m just trying to identify it.

What it boils down to, is during a portion of the relationship she was seeing someone else, sleeping with this person, and lying to me about it. I mean, I asked. I pointedly asked about this person and she just lied. This guy knew who I was, knew that this girl and I were together, and kept right on at it. Now, can I blame him for that? Not really, because he’s just doing what a guy does; however, the girl? She’s a whore, and a liar. Women always have the final say in what’s going to happen between themselves and a man, and apparently “I’m with someone, and fucking you seems like a bad idea.” wasn’t one of them.

Do you know the bitch had the nerve to cry, when I started asking and got upset about the situation? I mean really? Are you fucking serious? How is it, you get to cry and be upset, for doing the stupid? Why is it I can’t be upset because you are a total fuck up? I don’t understand that. What’s humorous to me though, is that this whore actually told me that she meant to tell me, but didn’t want to hurt me. You. Are. A. Liar. No one wants to get caught that’s why they lie in the first place, and crying and sobbing after you get caught doesn’t impress anyone. It does let them know you’re upset you got caught though.

I try very hard not to take other people’s actions and apply them to every other person’s actions when dealing with me. I see that I am failing slightly, because I’m having a very difficult time retaining trust when dealing with certain aspects of my life. That’s not good. I’m going to rectify this.

On the upside, Project India is in full swing. I need to get my passport renewed in the next month or so. Also, started running this morning since I can’t sleep. I haven’t slept in four days. That can’t be healthy.

Although I admire the way you cross your legs - it's fantastic, could you undo that a sec?